Today the numbness has officially worn off and it hurts. Its like after you have surgery and the good drugs are gone. You have to learn to adjust to the oral pain meds which are never quite as good. Its like the sting after you pull off the band aid. It kind of lingers.

I definitely feel a funk today. My whole body hurts. My head hurts. My mind aches. I go to lie down and sleep and I can’t. Everything just seems to spiral around me. I think it may take me more than 24 hours to get over this one. I haven’t really felt this way since the night before her heart surgery. At least then there was resolution. There was surgery and it was DONE. This will likely never be done and that is the worst part.

We are less than three weeks away from our Chicago trip. After that we will know everything about the big issues. I want to know but another part of me says… I know enough right now. Its more than enough.

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