I am still awake and scared to death that if I fall asleep that my princess is going to choke and that I won’t hear her. Kyleigh has been vomiting since 6 pm and everything that goes down comes back up. We talked to Joe at 10 pm and we decided to stay home tonight and pray that she would stop… wishful thinking I guess. I had been “concerned” up until now about everything not feeling right but I had not been SCARED. Now I am scared.

What does vomiting mean? Well it means nothing good in someone who is 15 days post op from a colostomy closure. As a matter of fact its BAD…Really I had told myself that I was just overreacting about that “feeling” I had about something not being right… I guess once again I was not. Something is wrong with her and I have no idea what it is. I feel so incredibly helpless…. and that is very very hard for me. I am a FIXER… a doer… I can get things done in ten different ways and at a moment’s notice. I hate not being able to help her.

All I can do now is hand her over to Joe and trust that he will be able to figure out what is going on in time to fix it before it becomes a bigger problem.

So if you are out there this late at night and reading… pray for Joe to get a good night’s sleep and to awake in the morning with the knowledge he needs to help my princess. Pray for him to have clarity in his understanding and patience in his countenance. Pray for grace for us because we cannot do this on our own. We need more help and strength than we actually possess within our physical beings.

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