The best of me is ready to begin… what a powerful statement. I am standing on the brink of something so powerful, and amazing that every time I breathe in … I breathe in the breath of life and of love.
There is a song that I have not heard or thought of in many MANY years. Somehow when I am going through things I find that music is such a great comfort and witness to my heart. Today when I was SO ill and last night when I was pacing and throwing up I fell to my knees and I began to hear this song in my head. I had to go straight to Itunes and download it. From the depths of my soul my heart cried out with THIS SONG.
The first song that is loading on my player that you are listening to right now is called “On my knees” by Jaci Velasquez. Here are the words.
The best of me is ready to begin
Then there’s days when I feel
I’m letting go and soaring on the wind
‘Cause I’ve learned in laughter or in pain
How to survive!
I get on my knees! (x2)
There I am before the Love That changes me
See I don’t know how
But there’s power when I’m on my knees
I can be in a crowd Or by myself
and almost anywhere
When I feel there’s a need
To talk with God
He is Emmanuel
When I close my eyes,
no darkness there There’s only light!
I get on my knees (x2)
There I am before the Love that changes me
See I don’t know how, but there’s power
In the blue skies, in the midnight
When I’m on my knees
I get on my knees (x2)
There I am before the Love
That changes me
See I don’t know how, but there’s power
When I’m on my, oh, when I’m on my
When I’m on my knees
I walked into my bedroom the other night and saw this. Immediately I reduced to my knees and to tears. 
There could not be any more appropriate words to be written to describe how I feel tonight. I find myself STANDING at the edge of something so amazing and wonderful and knowing that my journey thus far has served only to prepare me for this new pathway. I have said all along that my daughter was sent to save me. Before her… I knew NOT how to love unconditionally. I knew of LOVE but not IN LOVE if that makes any sense at all. Because you see, my daughter has shown me that LOVE that I needed to so feel that I had not found in ANY other source. This is why I truly believe that she is angel. She carried God’s love for me straight to earth and has taught me this amazing and beautiful love that I will share with my Prince in the future. Kyleigh was sent here to teach me something that could only come straight from our Heavenly Father… its amazing how the tiniest, sickest little body can have such a deep and striking soul that has touched so many.
You know the one thing I wonder today… I would love to know exactly how many lives my daughter has changed and how many lives she has touched. All the time I get comments that “I read your blog” and yet I see the same people posting comments. I know that the expanse of her story reaches further than we can ever fathom. I am so privileged to be her mother. What an amazing COMPLIMENT to me is it that my Heavenly Father entrusted this wonderful being to me. I am humbled… truly.
So… tonight my challenge to anyone reading this post… when you get on your knees… pray that our Heavenly Father would open your eyes to SEE. Sight is an amazing and powerful thing.
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What a beautiful sight….
Lori and Glenn
AMEN!!
This song spoke to me over the years. A little of my testimony: I was raped at 16 and got pregnant. I deceided that God’s will was to keep this child so I did. In her delivery my OB pulled the placenta out instead of waiting for it (remember how old I was and she did not agree with my decision at all) well she pulled my uterus with it and did not know it. After she left me I bled out and crashed flatlined)for 15 mintues. God must of thought this was not my time because by some miracle they brought me back. I went on to marry my true love who held my hand through it all. I had four other miracle children. With Faith I was told at 24 weeks that she did not but have half a brain and half a heart. She had webbed feet and hands. They told me to have an abortion and I would not. only God can take this child from me. I standed on God’s word and prayed his will (not for healing but for his will to be done). Every week I was watch the ultrasound screen and nothing was changing. I stood firm on God and at 32 weeks she was fully formed. The doctor’s did not believe it. My water broke 5 days later and she was born at 33 weeks but 5 lbs.3oz. that does not happen with out God. Faith is also the one with tethered spinal cord, FTT, GHD, ADHD, SID, full loss of bowel and bladder and many other problems but she is here. After her I had Bella who spent 21 days in the NICU and my mom and I sat by her bad and prayed-day and night. Well God blessed her and she is healthly as can be. After her I was blessed with a boy after 4 girls. His delivery did not go very well and lots of problems. I lost him 24 hours after he was born. So I know that song and it speaks volumes to me and to my family. Faith has had 40 surgeries over the past year and has spent most of the past year in the hospital while I have tried to hold down a job since I am the only one working (my husband is in school). This song is my theme and it is the only way I get through each day. I have lupus and fibro. So I got through each day in pain and fight for my daughters too. I am not trying to say I have more problem that you.. Actually I feel for you and I think that I am so blessed and wish I could take some of it from you. I could not imagaine what you go through each day. I just wanted to share that with you as my testimony of how great God is and how he is doing miracles each day.
Thanks for this blog you both have really touched our lives.
Jen