Have you ever SEEN a miracle? Like a physical, living breathing act of God. One that removes all doubt that there could be ANY other reason for this happening?

The word Miracle is defined as :

I can honestly say that you have seen a miracle. In looking at these photos… and even without knowing all the circumstances surrounding them… you have seen a miracle… something that can ONLY be described as a work of God, a wonder, marvel… something extraordinary.

Yesterday I watched my baby girl WALK out of the hospital. Not more than three hours after her surgery I watched my daughter step out the door and wave GOODBYE to this place that has meant so much to us and walk INTO the rest of her life. No stroller, no reservations… she simply waved goodbye and walked out the door.

In the past each time we leave the floor we wave and say “see you again sooner or later”. This time I cannot help but shake the feeling that there will only be LATER if anything at all. My daughter is a living breathing miracle. My LIFE is a miracle. A true testament to the power of prayer, faith and grace.

It is nearly THREE years to the day that our worlds were turned upside down with the fateful ultrasound day from hell. The day that seemed to drag on forever. That day that shook the foundation of everything I have ever known. The day when I would sit across the desk from Dr. Y and be only able to utter the words “I can’t do this …… ” My friends… I am here to tell you, I CAN do this. I can. I have. I will continue to.

Why? How? I have been given, beyond measure, a peace that passes all understanding. I am here to tell you that, although I am not a hugely RELIGIOUS person, I have a Heavenly Father who has done a mighty work in my life. A work that humbles and amazes me. I am humbled that he would see fit to allow ME to experience this miraculous event. That he chose me to be the wife and mother of this family. I find myself in tears and the song “Who am I?” comes to mind. “Who am I? That the Lord of all the earth… would care to know MY NAME. Not because of who I am But because of what You’ve done Not because of what I’ve done But because of who You are…….. I am your’s.” I am learning more and more everyday that THIS is sufficient. Not just enough… but PLENTY.
It was quite emotional watching Kyleigh wander through the hallway of KCH and knowing that she headed down that road with intention and purpose that is unlike that of most 2 year olds. I watched her as she turned to me and said “Come Oooon Mommy”. My eyes filled with tears as I realized that this surgery could mean that we are in the “home stretch”. This could mean no more weekend of ER’s followed by OR’s. No more 11 pm admissions. No more umcomfortable couch beds or skipped meals because Ky is NPO. No more anesthesia induced rage episodes. No more frantic phone calls to doctors after hours. No more long nights filled with blood pressures and temperatures. No more IV’s and lines. Hopefully some day soon Ky may even be completely TUBE free again!

For the first time three years I have allowed myself to think.. think of her dance recitals and first boyfriend. To think of her new car at 16 and her Prom. To think of how beautiful it will be to watch her and her daddy dance at her wedding. These are all things I had tucked away in my heart and refused to allow myself to think of. You can grieve something you have never had… so if I never dreamed those things for her then I would never have to have grieved the loss of them if the time came.

My days of fear and mourning are done. I have been through enough pain to last a lifetime and while I know that inevitably my life will bring me more… I know that the skies ahead of me are blue and the paths are blessed. I am moreover GRATEFUL for this amazing grace that has been given to me.

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